Sunday February 15th 2009

Another 1.5 pounds gone - going well. Two 6 mile walks round the Whissendine 6 this weekend - one with Ro and Geoff's dog Roy! Most amusing watching him trot away in the middle of the lane in front of us proudly holding his stick - he is stone deaf by the way - being followed by an irate farmer beeping his horn impatiently! Roy totally ignoring him until he turns round to check we are still there and seeing the landrover!! V amusing! Anyway Roy went straight to sleep under the table when he got back!!
So far then the total loss is 11.5 pounds and quite a few inches. Not too far now to the first whole stone gone. My trousers are feeling nice and loose as well - very satisfying and encouraging.

I have to say though that in this blog I make it all sound easy when it is decidedly not. Every meal needs discipline when the pull is so strong to give up; every exercise routine is difficult to start when all I want to do is to curl up in front of the fire with a piece of victoria sponge and a cup of tea. But the stronger pull now is the freedom from self condemnation and accusation that I now have and that is worth it all - the realisation that I do possess inner strength -to activate it I have to step out as it were in faith and as soon as I do that, the rest follows - it's just the beginning I have to do and then it takes on a momentum all of it's own because the strength is there to be had - supplied when I trust my Maker for each day. There will continue to be strong challenges but I will ' run the race that is set before me... and not look back.